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Previously on The Big C...

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So, the hospice, huh?

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How does this feel?

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I really like it here.

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This is how I want to go.

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It hasn't been easy not having you around.

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Over my dead body

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are you not graduating on time.

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You're doing a great deed

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donating your kidney to a stranger.

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- We need to go see dad.
- You hate dad.

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He's not that bad, Sean.

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I think it is incredibly big of you

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- to make amends with dad.
- Fuck him!

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I have to turn in some
"Just Clothes" designs

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to sir Isaac Mizrahi.

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He's fashion royalty.

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- Too much?
- No. Love.

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How long do most of us stick around for?

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Some people go for months.

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You never really know what's coming.

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[Light folk music]

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- synced by honeybunny / corrected by chamallow -
- www.addic7ed.com -

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<i>[Playing The Entertainer]</i>

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- Yeah!
- Fantastic!

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Whoo!

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I want you to play that at my funeral

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just to prove that it's never too late

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to start something new.

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I also... I have a list.

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There's a caterer that will do the spread

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for the two-day viewing.

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- Great, can we be done now?
- Almost.

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I don't know what to do about dad.

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Fuck dad.

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It's like an automated response with you.

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Fuck, yeah. Asshole.

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- I need to call him.
- Fuck him!

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We haven't talked to him

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since we went to his house
last year and told him off.

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I mean, he doesn't even know I'm sick.

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He's not even an asshole.
He's the whole ass.

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[Laughs]

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Okay, just stop. Stop!

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Adam, I don't want you talking
like that when I'm gone.

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Whoa. Are you okay?

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Yeah.

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[Morphine drip beeps]

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You want me to call him for you, honey?

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No. I should do it.

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Not like I'm his favorite guy anyway.

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I could call him if you want.

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No, it's okay, Adam. It's just...

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it's a shame you don't have

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a relationship with your grandpa.

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Yeah, it's a real shame
you don't get to hang around

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with this really mean guy we know.

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What if we never see him again?

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- Fuck him.
- Okay, I got to go.

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Where are you going?

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I'm going to hang out

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with Lydia and Jeff and some friends.

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- Where?
- Uh, Jeff's house.

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We're gonna play some video games,

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you know, smoke some pot, do some blow,

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maybe some speedballs, and
then go for a drive, so...

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Well, then do you think

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maybe you could squeeze some homework

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in between speedball and the joyride?

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Uh... yeah, I will.

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- I love you.
- Bye.

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- See you, dad.
- See you, Sean.

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- See you.
- Buddy.

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Why is he always rushing out of here?

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Maybe it's because you're
talking about your funeral

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like it's a grocery list.

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It was a little cavalier.

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Well, you know how much I love
crossing things off a list.

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Oh, I get it. God, I so get it.

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You're active. You're doing something.

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That's what keeps you
from totally losing it.

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You know, I'm doing all these tests

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right now for the transplant.

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And it feels so good

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to be actively moving towards a goal.

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I'm thinking about what I can give next...

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bone marrow, blood, for sure.

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You know, I might even get my tonsils out.

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[Clicks tongue] Not to donate,

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but I don't really need them.

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Yeah, see?

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That's how I feel.

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There you are.

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Here I am. Nice pocket square.

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You know, Andrea,

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my first week here, I
looked around the classroom.

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I studied everybody's first sketches,

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and I made some snap judgments.

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And how did I do?

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Well, I thought you were gonna
be my big attitude problem

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who thought she was God's gift to design.

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I envisioned us in a big fashion fight...

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feathers flying, beads thrown,

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words said that can't be taken back.

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[Laughs] We can still do that.

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But you surprised me.

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You amused me. You took my breath away.

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- Are you gonna propose to me?
- Yes, I am.

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I propose that you come
to New York this summer

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and intern for me.

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I'll pay you just enough to put you

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in a bug-infested apartment
the size of a closet.

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You'll be living the dream.

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That is my dream.

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Oh, my God! That's my dream!

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- Yay!
- Yay.

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I know what it is.

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- It's an "s."
- Mm-hmm. Ha.

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Damn it.

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I wish there was a way I
could check on you guys.

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Let's make a signal.

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If your electric toothbrush

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goes off when you're not using it,

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- it's just me saying hi.
- Okay.

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But what if that really freaks me out?

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- [Chuckles]
- * Knock, knock

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Hi, Cathy. Paul.

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Hello.

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I have some information

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I wanted to share with you.

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Would now be a good time for a chat?

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Have a seat.

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So, your insurance covers four months

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of on-site hospice care.

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And next Friday, you will have been with us

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exactly four months.

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So, we need to make a plan.

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A plan for what?

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Where you're going to go.

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What do you mean where am I gonna go?

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I don't want to go anywhere.

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Do we just have the worst insurance ever?

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Actually, this is very standard.

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And your insurance does
cover home hospice care,

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which would start as soon as you get home.

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And that would include a hospice nurse

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coming in to check on
you several hours a day.

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Okay, what if we wanted to stay here?

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How much would it cost
to pay out of pocket?

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Well, unfortunately,

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we are an insurance-based hospice,

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so we can only provide
care through your plan.

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- You don't take cash?
- Mm-mm.

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Who doesn't take cash?

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I mean, look, we... we
know you have room here.

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I mean, that bed's been empty for months.

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You know what? It's okay, Cath.

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It's actually great.

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I get to take my bride home again.

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Actually, I thought you might
be excited about going home.

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I'm excited. I'll get
you all set up, honey.

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You can curl up with your own blanket.

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We had a woman here a few months ago

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who begged to go home

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just to sit in her favorite rocker

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on her sun-porch.

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And her husband said that
that is where she passed

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with a smile on her face.

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If I wanted to sit on
my frickin' sun-porch,

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I would never have come here.

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But I did come here,

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because I don't want our
son to associate our house

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with the place where his mother died.

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"Oh, that's the room she fell down in.

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That's the room where she finally passed."

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<i>I came here to die.</i>

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Well, you have until Friday.

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He said that I inspire him.

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I'm not surprised.

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You inspire me.

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I figured at first that
he was, like, creating

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some new big-gal line,

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but it's regular skinny clothes.

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Are you winking at me?

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I'm sorry.

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It helps me focus. Go on.

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And this is really cool.

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We both get good news on the same day.

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I get a job, and you're going home.

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Yep.

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What do you mean I'm shellfish?

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[Laughter]

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I like seeing you guys on my rounds.

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- [Laughs]
- Oh, my God.

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It's like a joke.

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A priest, a rabbi, and a Muslim dude...

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No, an imam.

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- All walk into a bar.
- A hospice.

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[Chuckles]

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Andrea, would you ask
them to come over here?

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Where do you think we go when we die?

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It's the question I'm most often asked,

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second only to, "how long is the service?"

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[Laughs] I get that one too.

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Catholic thought is that you go to heaven,

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where believers enjoy the presence of God

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and the freedom from suffering and sin.

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That sounds nice.

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All right, rabbi, what you got?

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Well, the torah does
not discuss an afterlife.

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<i>We focus on olam ha ze... this world... </i>

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the here and now.

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Well, my "here and now"
is about to get up and go.

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So, can you give me something
to get excited about?

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Well, there is a famous midrash

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that describes souls in the afterlife

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at a huge banquet table,

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sharing delicious food.

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- That's better.
- I like Jewish food.

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Oh, same here.

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Our paradise, Jannah, is pretty nice.

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You get to wear fancy robes,

223
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and you can recline on couches.

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[Laughter] I might be Muslim.

225
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But the sick and the dying
have to wait their turn to go.

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It's a big tease.

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The essence of faith

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is surrendering to God's will.

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And his timing.

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I take great comfort

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in knowing that my life and death

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is no more important than others.

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But if I have to stay here

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and wait for God to decide
when he's ready to let me go,

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why does it have to be so painful?

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Your illness is not just to test you,

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but to test the charity of others.

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Have you seen generosity and kindness

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in the people around you?

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Well, we believe that beauty

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and the knowledge of
that goodness is Allah.

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We believe it's God.

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We're not sure.

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[Praying in arabic]

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- [Singing prayer in hebrew]
- [Continues praying in arabic]

246
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[Continues singing prayer in hebrew]

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Oh, lord Jesus Christ,
most merciful lord of earth,

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we ask that you receive
this child into your arms,

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that she may pass in
safety from this crisis.

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As thou hast told us
with infinite compassion,

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let not your heart be troubled.

252
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Ye believe in God, believe also in me.

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[Exhales deeply]

254
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How you doing, Adam?

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I'm tired.

256
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You look tired.

257
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All my friends are partying

258
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because they're almost out of school,

259
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and I'm still taking tests.

260
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Well, you dug your own hole.

261
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[Keys clacking]

262
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Now jump in.

263
00:11:25,679 --> 00:11:30,016
I'm ready.

264
00:11:30,050 --> 00:11:33,953
I don't want it to get any more painful...

265
00:11:33,987 --> 00:11:35,288
not for me,

266
00:11:35,322 --> 00:11:38,958
but more importantly for my family.

267
00:11:40,994 --> 00:11:43,463
I apologize

268
00:11:43,497 --> 00:11:45,932
if I didn't have enough faith in my life

269
00:11:45,966 --> 00:11:48,968
or the right kind of faith.

270
00:11:49,002 --> 00:11:52,004
But right now...

271
00:11:52,039 --> 00:11:55,141
I believe in you.

272
00:11:56,810 --> 00:12:00,646
I believe you can help me.

273
00:12:03,484 --> 00:12:07,453
Now I lay me down to sleep.

274
00:12:07,488 --> 00:12:11,124
I pray the lord my soul to keep.

275
00:12:12,634 --> 00:12:18,631
If I should die before I wake...

276
00:12:18,665 --> 00:12:21,667
that'd be good.

277
00:12:46,360 --> 00:12:49,862
God damn it.

278
00:12:52,266 --> 00:12:55,368
Not only did you think
that you could get everyone

279
00:12:55,402 --> 00:12:57,837
and everything under
control before you died,

280
00:12:57,871 --> 00:13:00,439
but you actually thought
that you could control

281
00:13:00,474 --> 00:13:02,942
when you died?

282
00:13:02,976 --> 00:13:05,011
Well, not just me.

283
00:13:05,045 --> 00:13:07,046
I thought I could invoke
a little divine help.

284
00:13:07,080 --> 00:13:10,016
Yeah, but isn't having
faith largely defined

285
00:13:10,050 --> 00:13:12,952
by surrendering control?

286
00:13:12,986 --> 00:13:15,188
I have surrendered control.

287
00:13:15,222 --> 00:13:17,757
I need someone to help
me go to the bathroom.

288
00:13:17,791 --> 00:13:20,126
I've completely given
up trying to look cute.

289
00:13:20,160 --> 00:13:22,061
I'm reconciling the fact

290
00:13:22,095 --> 00:13:23,863
that my dad and I will never be close.

291
00:13:23,897 --> 00:13:26,365
And I won't get to see Adam
graduate from high school.

292
00:13:26,400 --> 00:13:27,700
Yeah, but you're also afraid

293
00:13:27,734 --> 00:13:30,036
that your death might screw up Adam.

294
00:13:30,070 --> 00:13:32,038
That's not the same as trusting

295
00:13:32,072 --> 00:13:34,307
in a higher plan for a greater good.

296
00:13:34,341 --> 00:13:38,544
I thought therapy was supposed
to make you feel better.

297
00:13:38,579 --> 00:13:40,046
- Not necessarily.
- Hmm.

298
00:13:40,080 --> 00:13:41,914
Then you're doing great.

299
00:13:41,949 --> 00:13:44,584
Why, thank you.

300
00:13:46,353 --> 00:13:48,888
So, if I sign something

301
00:13:48,922 --> 00:13:50,256
saying I'm willing to meet the person

302
00:13:50,290 --> 00:13:52,124
that I'm donating my kidney to

303
00:13:52,159 --> 00:13:54,060
and they sign something saying
they're willing to meet me,

304
00:13:54,094 --> 00:13:56,062
then it doesn't have to be anonymous.

305
00:13:56,096 --> 00:13:57,129
And guess what.

306
00:13:57,164 --> 00:13:58,731
We both signed.

307
00:13:58,765 --> 00:14:01,467
I'm meeting him. His name is Ray.

308
00:14:01,501 --> 00:14:02,969
You don't even seem nervous.

309
00:14:03,003 --> 00:14:06,138
No, no. I'm over that part now.

310
00:14:06,173 --> 00:14:07,807
Hey, you know how you hear these stories

311
00:14:07,841 --> 00:14:09,909
that sometimes donors and donees

312
00:14:09,943 --> 00:14:11,744
become lifelong friends?

313
00:14:11,778 --> 00:14:15,414
Well, maybe now that he'll have
a little piece of me in him,

314
00:14:15,449 --> 00:14:17,850
maybe he'll become like a brother.

315
00:14:17,885 --> 00:14:20,186
- You know?
- Sean...

316
00:14:20,220 --> 00:14:25,258
Now, I know that I've judged
you for not being typical,

317
00:14:25,292 --> 00:14:27,693
but you do amazing things.

318
00:14:27,728 --> 00:14:30,329
You help people, which is why

319
00:14:30,364 --> 00:14:33,266
you're the person I'm
asking to help me now.

320
00:14:33,300 --> 00:14:34,367
With what?

321
00:14:34,401 --> 00:14:36,836
I'm ready to go.

322
00:14:36,870 --> 00:14:39,438
Uh, where?

323
00:14:39,473 --> 00:14:43,042
On my adventure to the great beyond.

324
00:14:43,076 --> 00:14:45,278
And if I don't die
naturally in here by Friday,

325
00:14:45,312 --> 00:14:47,280
I have to die in the
house in front of Adam,

326
00:14:47,314 --> 00:14:48,848
and I don't want to do that.

327
00:14:48,882 --> 00:14:50,616
And most importantly,

328
00:14:50,651 --> 00:14:53,719
I want to do this last hurrah with you.

329
00:14:53,754 --> 00:14:57,556
But I'm relying on your
amazing ability not to judge.

330
00:14:57,591 --> 00:14:59,358
And I love you,

331
00:14:59,393 --> 00:15:01,560
which is why...

332
00:15:01,595 --> 00:15:04,297
my dying wish is that...

333
00:15:08,268 --> 00:15:11,070
you help me die.

334
00:15:11,104 --> 00:15:12,405
[Scoffs]

335
00:15:12,439 --> 00:15:16,742
Y... you are a fucking crazy lady!

336
00:15:16,777 --> 00:15:19,245
Hey. Hey, crazy lady,

337
00:15:19,279 --> 00:15:20,379
what did you just do with my sister?

338
00:15:20,414 --> 00:15:21,714
Did you eat her?

339
00:15:21,748 --> 00:15:23,049
If I looked in your mouth right now,

340
00:15:23,083 --> 00:15:24,650
would Cathy be down there screaming,

341
00:15:24,685 --> 00:15:26,852
"hey, this crazy bitch just gobbled me up,

342
00:15:26,887 --> 00:15:29,422
but I'm totally sane, and I'm down here"?

343
00:15:29,456 --> 00:15:31,090
Just keep it down, Sean.

344
00:15:31,124 --> 00:15:33,659
I'm not gonna help you kill yourself, Cath.

345
00:15:33,694 --> 00:15:36,829
What do you think vegan
kidney donors do, huh?

346
00:15:36,863 --> 00:15:39,532
We save lives, not destroy them.

347
00:15:39,566 --> 00:15:42,335
- I just want to...
- What?

348
00:15:42,369 --> 00:15:44,770
Participate in my own death,

349
00:15:44,805 --> 00:15:46,672
acknowledge it, accept it.

350
00:15:46,707 --> 00:15:48,574
It's not like I'm cutting my life short.

351
00:15:48,608 --> 00:15:49,842
I know my time is up.

352
00:15:49,876 --> 00:15:51,444
You don't know that.

353
00:15:51,478 --> 00:15:55,014
You could have ten days, or
you could have six months.

354
00:15:55,048 --> 00:15:57,583
I can't walk, Sean.

355
00:15:57,617 --> 00:15:59,285
My vision is so messed up.

356
00:15:59,319 --> 00:16:01,420
I'm terrified of going
blind and hearing your voice

357
00:16:01,455 --> 00:16:03,589
and not being able to see your face.

358
00:16:03,623 --> 00:16:05,057
The pain medication they give me...

359
00:16:05,092 --> 00:16:06,525
it doesn't take it all away anymore.

360
00:16:06,560 --> 00:16:08,594
And I'm hurting all the time now, Sean.

361
00:16:08,628 --> 00:16:10,062
Now, look, I might be weak-minded,

362
00:16:10,097 --> 00:16:11,864
or maybe I'm just not framing this right,

363
00:16:11,898 --> 00:16:14,033
but I want to go...

364
00:16:14,067 --> 00:16:15,234
now.

365
00:16:15,268 --> 00:16:17,503
[Sighs]

366
00:16:17,537 --> 00:16:19,538
Well, why me? Huh?

367
00:16:19,573 --> 00:16:21,407
Why not... why not Paul?

368
00:16:21,441 --> 00:16:23,275
You're supposed to be partners with him

369
00:16:23,310 --> 00:16:24,877
in sickness and in health.

370
00:16:24,911 --> 00:16:27,346
Paul definitely wouldn't get it.

371
00:16:27,381 --> 00:16:29,348
I'm worried he's not gonna honor

372
00:16:29,383 --> 00:16:30,916
the DNR I signed.

373
00:16:30,951 --> 00:16:33,119
Well, I don't get it either.

374
00:16:33,153 --> 00:16:36,355
Okay. That's fine.

375
00:16:36,390 --> 00:16:39,392
[Motor hums]

376
00:16:41,895 --> 00:16:44,764
Her birthday is in two months.

377
00:16:44,798 --> 00:16:46,899
We have to plan something
really meaningful, you know?

378
00:16:46,933 --> 00:16:48,034
Great idea.

379
00:16:48,068 --> 00:16:49,869
[Door closes]

380
00:16:49,903 --> 00:16:51,570
[Clears throat] Hey, everybody.

381
00:16:51,605 --> 00:16:54,040
- Hey, man.
- Hey, Sean.

382
00:16:54,074 --> 00:16:56,042
Check out this cashmere
blanket I got for Cathy.

383
00:16:56,076 --> 00:16:57,576
It's like sleeping with a bunny.

384
00:16:57,611 --> 00:16:59,311
Yeah. It's nice.

385
00:16:59,346 --> 00:17:01,280
Who's, uh, gonna go see her tonight?

386
00:17:01,314 --> 00:17:03,549
- I am.
- I'm going tomorrow.

387
00:17:03,583 --> 00:17:05,251
Me too.

388
00:17:05,285 --> 00:17:06,886
Why? Is she worse?

389
00:17:06,920 --> 00:17:09,088
No. No. She... same.

390
00:17:09,122 --> 00:17:11,791
Just... you never know, so, you know...

391
00:17:11,825 --> 00:17:14,226
it's good to say what you want to say.

392
00:17:14,261 --> 00:17:15,728
That's all I'm saying.

393
00:17:15,762 --> 00:17:17,730
What's that?

394
00:17:17,764 --> 00:17:20,266
It's just to keep track of her medications.

395
00:17:20,300 --> 00:17:21,734
One of the nurses at the hospice

396
00:17:21,768 --> 00:17:23,235
taught me how they make their charts.

397
00:17:23,270 --> 00:17:25,071
Buddy, you left off Tuesday.

398
00:17:25,105 --> 00:17:28,841
Oh, shit.

399
00:17:31,878 --> 00:17:34,013
- It won't come off.
- Why not?

400
00:17:34,047 --> 00:17:36,816
It's permanent marker.

401
00:17:36,850 --> 00:17:38,250
Damn it, Adam. What the hell?

402
00:17:38,285 --> 00:17:39,418
I just reached into the drawer.

403
00:17:39,453 --> 00:17:41,020
I didn't think about it.

404
00:17:41,054 --> 00:17:42,822
Yeah, well, you should've thought about it.

405
00:17:42,856 --> 00:17:44,757
- It's not a big deal, is it?
- Oh, I don't know.

406
00:17:44,791 --> 00:17:47,093
Is it a big deal if she
doesn't get the right pills?

407
00:17:47,127 --> 00:17:48,761
You know what? Let's just skip Tuesday.

408
00:17:48,795 --> 00:17:50,596
Who cares, right?

409
00:17:50,630 --> 00:17:52,431
I mean, if she doesn't get
her pain medication on time

410
00:17:52,466 --> 00:17:54,300
and I'm in the garage and
I can't hear her scream,

411
00:17:54,334 --> 00:17:55,835
who cares, right?

412
00:17:55,869 --> 00:17:57,336
Yeah, you're right. Fuck it. No big deal.

413
00:17:57,370 --> 00:17:59,138
W... whoa, Paul.

414
00:17:59,172 --> 00:18:00,840
I mean, why are we even trying
to make this place look nice?

415
00:18:00,874 --> 00:18:03,442
I know. Let's let her
drag herself up the stairs,

416
00:18:03,477 --> 00:18:05,544
and if she falls down...

417
00:18:05,579 --> 00:18:08,814
[Sobbing]

418
00:18:14,654 --> 00:18:16,155
Oh, God!

419
00:18:16,189 --> 00:18:18,524
It's okay, buddy.

420
00:18:18,558 --> 00:18:21,026
It's okay. It's okay.

421
00:18:21,061 --> 00:18:22,194
It's okay.

422
00:18:22,229 --> 00:18:25,197
[Sobbing]

423
00:18:27,734 --> 00:18:29,368
I'm scared.

424
00:18:29,402 --> 00:18:31,337
I know.

425
00:18:35,075 --> 00:18:38,077
She doesn't want to come home, you know.

426
00:18:38,111 --> 00:18:41,313
Can I tell you something?

427
00:18:41,348 --> 00:18:44,016
And I hate myself for this.

428
00:18:45,459 --> 00:18:48,053
I don't want her to come home either.

429
00:18:57,197 --> 00:18:59,665
If you still want to do this thing,

430
00:18:59,699 --> 00:19:03,002
I'll help you.

431
00:19:07,474 --> 00:19:10,042
Once you have the plastic tubing

432
00:19:10,076 --> 00:19:11,610
and the plastic hood,

433
00:19:11,645 --> 00:19:15,347
you need 2 helium tanks
for 50 party balloons,

434
00:19:15,382 --> 00:19:18,851
uh, which you can rent or buy.

435
00:19:18,885 --> 00:19:21,187
If I rent them, you have to return them.

436
00:19:21,221 --> 00:19:24,523
The first tank should kill you.

437
00:19:24,558 --> 00:19:27,026
But the second tank is just
in case something goes wrong.

438
00:19:27,060 --> 00:19:29,528
God almighty, how do you sleep at night?

439
00:19:29,563 --> 00:19:30,930
Really well.

440
00:19:30,964 --> 00:19:32,464
I could hardly sleep at all when my wife

441
00:19:32,499 --> 00:19:34,600
was in the final stages of lymphoma

442
00:19:34,634 --> 00:19:36,969
and begged me not to let
her die in the hospital.

443
00:19:37,003 --> 00:19:38,404
W-we found this group,

444
00:19:38,438 --> 00:19:40,139
and they told us about some options.

445
00:19:40,173 --> 00:19:41,807
And then we found a sympathetic doctor

446
00:19:41,841 --> 00:19:45,377
who gave us some drugs that I mixed...

447
00:19:45,412 --> 00:19:49,648
I mean, that she mixed into her coffee.

448
00:19:49,683 --> 00:19:53,152
And her final words
were, "thank you, love."

449
00:19:53,186 --> 00:19:55,554
The hood...

450
00:19:55,589 --> 00:19:57,556
doesn't seem very discreet.

451
00:19:57,591 --> 00:19:59,725
And... and then Adam would know.

452
00:19:59,759 --> 00:20:01,327
Is there anything less dramatic?

453
00:20:01,361 --> 00:20:04,463
Well, some people take as
much morphine as they can

454
00:20:04,497 --> 00:20:06,732
and then have someone else
place a bag over their head

455
00:20:06,766 --> 00:20:08,500
when they've fallen asleep

456
00:20:08,535 --> 00:20:12,404
and then dispose of the bag after.

457
00:20:12,439 --> 00:20:14,240
No! Whoa.

458
00:20:14,274 --> 00:20:17,142
I am not suffocating my own sister.

459
00:20:17,177 --> 00:20:18,410
Remember at camp?

460
00:20:18,445 --> 00:20:20,246
You loved to hold me underwater.

461
00:20:20,280 --> 00:20:22,448
Oh, my God, Cathy. Don't say that.

462
00:20:22,482 --> 00:20:25,150
I was trying to torture you, not kill you.

463
00:20:25,185 --> 00:20:28,053
So, how do we get in touch

464
00:20:28,088 --> 00:20:30,222
with one of these sympathetic doctors?

465
00:20:30,257 --> 00:20:31,657
We're not allowed to give out names.

466
00:20:31,691 --> 00:20:33,058
Too bad you don't live in Oregon.

467
00:20:33,093 --> 00:20:34,560
Yeah, that's one of a few things

468
00:20:34,594 --> 00:20:36,895
I feel bad about right now.

469
00:20:36,930 --> 00:20:39,398
It's a lot to take in. Here's my card.

470
00:20:39,432 --> 00:20:41,333
If you have any questions
or want to talk some more,

471
00:20:41,368 --> 00:20:42,801
just give me a call.

472
00:20:42,836 --> 00:20:44,970
Hey, totally great and weird to meet you.

473
00:20:45,005 --> 00:20:47,006
[Chuckles]

474
00:20:47,040 --> 00:20:48,274
All right.

475
00:20:48,308 --> 00:20:50,576
Look, I have got to go now

476
00:20:50,610 --> 00:20:53,412
and meet my kidney brother Ray.

477
00:20:53,446 --> 00:20:58,851
And we'll talk more about
this when I get back, okay?

478
00:20:58,885 --> 00:21:00,586
Oh, hey.

479
00:21:00,620 --> 00:21:04,456
Don't go to the party
store before I come back.

480
00:21:22,142 --> 00:21:25,210
Mr. Tolke, this is Ray Milson.

481
00:21:25,245 --> 00:21:28,380
Uh, Sean. Sean. Call me Sean.

482
00:21:28,415 --> 00:21:29,782
This is my wife Janelle.

483
00:21:29,816 --> 00:21:33,285
- Can I just give you a hug?
- [Laughter]

484
00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:34,953
If you don't mind, I'm going
to take care of a few things,

485
00:21:34,988 --> 00:21:38,457
and let you all get acquainted.

486
00:21:38,491 --> 00:21:40,793
[Clears throat]

487
00:21:40,827 --> 00:21:43,395
Well, I really appreciate
what you're doing, Sean.

488
00:21:43,430 --> 00:21:46,065
Oh, it's my pleasure, Ray.

489
00:21:46,099 --> 00:21:49,868
Um, this has been a really
good experience for me.

490
00:21:49,903 --> 00:21:51,537
My sister's dying.

491
00:21:51,571 --> 00:21:53,405
So, being able to focus
on something positive

492
00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:56,008
like kidney surgery...
it's been just great.

493
00:21:56,042 --> 00:21:57,643
I'm so sorry to hear that.

494
00:21:57,677 --> 00:21:59,545
If there's anything
you or your family need,

495
00:21:59,579 --> 00:22:02,214
we'd love to help you
out in any way we can.

496
00:22:02,248 --> 00:22:05,084
That's very nice of you, but we're okay.

497
00:22:05,118 --> 00:22:06,318
Thanks.

498
00:22:06,353 --> 00:22:08,420
We're just so grateful to you.

499
00:22:08,455 --> 00:22:11,323
- We brought you a gift.
- It's sort of a thank-you.

500
00:22:11,358 --> 00:22:13,092
No matter what happens,

501
00:22:13,126 --> 00:22:15,461
the fact that you're willing
to do this for a stranger

502
00:22:15,495 --> 00:22:17,996
means the world.

503
00:22:18,031 --> 00:22:20,532
Oh.

504
00:22:20,567 --> 00:22:23,135
I'm sorry. I... I don't want that.

505
00:22:23,169 --> 00:22:24,570
I... it's just a token.

506
00:22:24,604 --> 00:22:27,473
I don't value material goods.

507
00:22:27,507 --> 00:22:29,975
Well, they say once you go
Rolex, you never go back.

508
00:22:30,009 --> 00:22:32,211
[Laughter]

509
00:22:32,245 --> 00:22:35,714
Are you trying to buy
my kidney with a watch?

510
00:22:35,749 --> 00:22:37,149
Absolutely not.

511
00:22:37,183 --> 00:22:39,218
It's just a thank-you.

512
00:22:39,252 --> 00:22:40,919
No, "thank you" is just a thank-you.

513
00:22:40,954 --> 00:22:42,821
That's a watch,

514
00:22:42,856 --> 00:22:45,324
the cash value of which could
go to pay somebody's health care

515
00:22:45,358 --> 00:22:46,859
who will die of their kidney disease

516
00:22:46,893 --> 00:22:48,527
without ever being able to go to the doctor

517
00:22:48,561 --> 00:22:49,895
to find out what's killing them.

518
00:22:49,929 --> 00:22:51,830
We didn't mean to insult you.

519
00:22:51,865 --> 00:22:53,332
If you don't want the watch...

520
00:22:53,366 --> 00:22:56,268
You insulted humanity.

521
00:22:56,302 --> 00:22:58,837
You know, you're the
reason I, just this minute,

522
00:22:58,872 --> 00:23:01,173
decided to go live back on the streets.

523
00:23:01,207 --> 00:23:03,409
- You're homeless?
- No, I am a freegan.

524
00:23:03,443 --> 00:23:06,412
I am occasionally homeless by choice.

525
00:23:06,446 --> 00:23:09,014
Well, all homeless people
are homeless by choice.

526
00:23:09,048 --> 00:23:11,216
What the Rolex is that supposed to mean?

527
00:23:11,251 --> 00:23:12,718
There are plenty of people

528
00:23:12,752 --> 00:23:14,686
who don't take proper
advantage of opportunity.

529
00:23:14,721 --> 00:23:16,522
Holy fuck, Ray.

530
00:23:16,556 --> 00:23:18,724
If your head's that far up your ass,

531
00:23:18,758 --> 00:23:20,859
you should be able to
kiss your kidney good-bye

532
00:23:20,894 --> 00:23:24,696
on its way out.

533
00:23:24,731 --> 00:23:26,265
[Door slams]

534
00:23:37,477 --> 00:23:39,044
Guess what.

535
00:23:39,078 --> 00:23:41,146
I got Wesley to cough up the name

536
00:23:41,181 --> 00:23:43,215
of a Kevorkian-type doctor in Oregon.

537
00:23:43,249 --> 00:23:45,884
They are so civilized there.

538
00:23:45,919 --> 00:23:49,555
If you are terminal, they...
they write you a prescription,

539
00:23:49,589 --> 00:23:51,557
you drink a little drink, you go to sleep.

540
00:23:51,591 --> 00:23:53,058
Wow. Sounds great.

541
00:23:53,092 --> 00:23:55,060
And that wonderful doctor

542
00:23:55,094 --> 00:23:57,629
[whispering] is going
to give me that drink.

543
00:23:57,664 --> 00:23:59,298
[Normal voice] But he
won't put it in the mail.

544
00:23:59,332 --> 00:24:01,967
So, I need you, please.
You need to get to Oregon.

545
00:24:02,001 --> 00:24:04,303
You need to show him my scans

546
00:24:04,337 --> 00:24:06,238
and bring back the goods.

547
00:24:06,272 --> 00:24:08,474
It'll give you plenty of time
before your surgery on Monday.

548
00:24:08,508 --> 00:24:10,309
It doesn't matter,

549
00:24:10,343 --> 00:24:12,144
'cause I'm... I'm not
doing the surgery anymore.

550
00:24:12,178 --> 00:24:14,947
[Sighs] So, uh, where am I supposed to go

551
00:24:14,981 --> 00:24:16,682
to meet your doctor feel-no-more?

552
00:24:16,716 --> 00:24:18,116
Why aren't you doing the surgery?

553
00:24:18,151 --> 00:24:20,819
Just found out my kidney brother, Ray,

554
00:24:20,854 --> 00:24:22,921
is a fucking elitist bigot.

555
00:24:22,956 --> 00:24:25,424
So, I'm just going to
let him die, go to Oregon,

556
00:24:25,458 --> 00:24:27,426
get the stuff to come back and kill you.

557
00:24:27,460 --> 00:24:29,628
As a pacifist, I'm gonna
have a lot blood on my hands,

558
00:24:29,662 --> 00:24:31,330
but it feels right.

559
00:24:31,364 --> 00:24:33,031
Sean, you can't let this man die.

560
00:24:33,066 --> 00:24:35,667
No, no, it's okay. He's completely crazy.

561
00:24:35,702 --> 00:24:37,870
He doesn't believe in homeless people.

562
00:24:37,904 --> 00:24:39,438
Look, you don't know.

563
00:24:39,472 --> 00:24:42,441
I mean, maybe there's a lot
of good things that Ray does.

564
00:24:42,475 --> 00:24:43,709
I doubt it.

565
00:24:43,743 --> 00:24:45,878
He might give to an animal charity.

566
00:24:45,912 --> 00:24:49,548
Look, even if he isn't generous,

567
00:24:49,582 --> 00:24:52,184
maybe your act of
generosity will change him.

568
00:24:52,218 --> 00:24:53,685
You'll be giving him years

569
00:24:53,720 --> 00:24:55,888
to have the opportunity to change.

570
00:24:55,922 --> 00:24:57,122
I...

571
00:24:57,156 --> 00:24:58,557
Even if he doesn't,

572
00:24:58,591 --> 00:25:02,794
maybe there are other people who love Ray,

573
00:25:02,829 --> 00:25:05,631
warts and all, very much.

574
00:25:05,665 --> 00:25:08,133
You'd be giving them
at least the opportunity

575
00:25:08,167 --> 00:25:10,135
to have more holidays with him,

576
00:25:10,169 --> 00:25:15,140
to feel that love before
it turns to heartache.

577
00:25:15,174 --> 00:25:18,710
I can't do both, not by Friday.

578
00:25:18,745 --> 00:25:20,579
I'm supposed to have
another round of blood work.

579
00:25:20,613 --> 00:25:21,914
And they asked me not to travel

580
00:25:21,948 --> 00:25:24,316
to avoid any last-minute disease.

581
00:25:24,350 --> 00:25:26,251
- Oh.
- See?

582
00:25:26,286 --> 00:25:27,819
Let me do this.

583
00:25:27,854 --> 00:25:32,157
It's more important you die than he live.

584
00:25:32,191 --> 00:25:34,893
No, it isn't.

585
00:25:34,928 --> 00:25:36,995
My life or my death

586
00:25:37,030 --> 00:25:38,931
are no more important than anyone else's.

587
00:25:38,965 --> 00:25:41,667
W... what are you gonna do, then?

588
00:25:41,701 --> 00:25:44,836
[Scoffs] I've been having this real...

589
00:25:44,871 --> 00:25:47,940
push-pull thing with God lately

590
00:25:47,974 --> 00:25:50,509
and the reason for his or her timing.

591
00:25:50,543 --> 00:25:52,411
You know, I've never really died before,

592
00:25:52,445 --> 00:25:56,281
so maybe I just need to
play the whole thing out.

593
00:25:57,984 --> 00:25:59,484
Take it as it comes.

594
00:25:59,519 --> 00:26:03,488
[Huckles]

595
00:26:03,523 --> 00:26:06,525
[Clock ticking]

596
00:26:16,102 --> 00:26:18,503
[Laughs]

597
00:26:18,538 --> 00:26:22,341
What? What's wrong?

598
00:26:22,375 --> 00:26:25,377
[Laughing]

599
00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:30,849
A pacifist with blood on his hands.

600
00:26:30,883 --> 00:26:33,185
I... I mean...

601
00:26:33,219 --> 00:26:35,921
I never even killed a spider before.

602
00:26:35,955 --> 00:26:40,359
And here I was, ready
to take two people out.

603
00:26:40,393 --> 00:26:43,195
[Both laughing]

604
00:26:43,229 --> 00:26:44,529
[Sean snorts]

605
00:26:44,564 --> 00:26:48,266
[Both continue laughing]

606
00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:17,299
Your home hospice nurse
is coming this afternoon.

607
00:28:17,300 --> 00:28:18,934
I think her name is Ina.

608
00:28:18,968 --> 00:28:20,969
It's "ee-na." I talked
to her on the phone.

609
00:28:21,004 --> 00:28:22,938
Oh, yeah? Is she nice?

610
00:28:22,972 --> 00:28:25,507
- Yeah, she sounded awesome.
- She's supposed to be terrific.

611
00:28:25,542 --> 00:28:28,377
You're going home 'cause you're a fighter.

612
00:28:28,411 --> 00:28:29,511
Hmm?

613
00:28:29,546 --> 00:28:31,113
'Cause you told your cancer

614
00:28:31,147 --> 00:28:32,481
that you're gonna fight till the end.

615
00:28:32,515 --> 00:28:34,216
That's why you get to go home.

616
00:28:34,250 --> 00:28:36,051
They didn't expect you to
live for four more months,

617
00:28:36,085 --> 00:28:37,486
but you did.

618
00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:38,987
And now you could be one of those stories

619
00:28:39,022 --> 00:28:40,222
where you leave hospice,

620
00:28:40,256 --> 00:28:42,958
and you live for years and get cured

621
00:28:42,992 --> 00:28:44,560
and beat this thing for good.

622
00:28:44,594 --> 00:28:46,328
You know, healthy people, they've really...

623
00:28:46,362 --> 00:28:49,364
they've got to stop saying things like,

624
00:28:49,399 --> 00:28:51,300
"she fought to the end,"

625
00:28:51,334 --> 00:28:53,569
or, "he battled cancer,"

626
00:28:53,603 --> 00:28:57,172
because then when they
die, you have to say...

627
00:28:57,206 --> 00:29:00,175
"they lost their battle to cancer."

628
00:29:02,078 --> 00:29:03,979
You're saying they're a loser.

629
00:29:04,013 --> 00:29:06,815
They're a loser because they died?

630
00:29:06,849 --> 00:29:08,383
And what were their choices?

631
00:29:08,418 --> 00:29:09,985
I just meant that...

632
00:29:10,019 --> 00:29:12,154
did you ever think that
if we all live forever,

633
00:29:12,188 --> 00:29:13,689
no one would ever have babies.

634
00:29:13,723 --> 00:29:15,000
There'd be no space.

635
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,169
Dying's necessary. It's important.

636
00:29:18,204 --> 00:29:19,804
It sucks.

637
00:29:19,839 --> 00:29:23,141
So, when we do...

638
00:29:23,175 --> 00:29:25,343
don't criticize us on the way out.

639
00:29:25,377 --> 00:29:27,812
Just say...

640
00:29:27,847 --> 00:29:30,148
"Good-bye,"

641
00:29:30,182 --> 00:29:33,651
and, "thank you,"

642
00:29:33,686 --> 00:29:37,222
and, "you're not a loser."

643
00:29:47,867 --> 00:29:50,168
Here are your morphine patches,

644
00:29:50,202 --> 00:29:53,438
and I brought an extra blanket here,

645
00:29:53,472 --> 00:29:55,106
in case you want.

646
00:29:55,141 --> 00:29:57,275
Lord, it's chilly here for me.

647
00:29:57,309 --> 00:29:59,677
I guess that global
warning hasn't come to us

648
00:29:59,712 --> 00:30:02,847
- here in Minnesota.
- It's "warming."

649
00:30:02,882 --> 00:30:04,516
I believe we were discussing
my wife's schedule.

650
00:30:04,550 --> 00:30:06,518
Of course. Right.

651
00:30:06,552 --> 00:30:09,254
I'll be by every morning to check on you.

652
00:30:09,288 --> 00:30:11,356
You can always administer
your pain meds yourself.

653
00:30:11,390 --> 00:30:13,925
Now, are you... are you
comfortable here, hon?

654
00:30:13,959 --> 00:30:15,199
Yeah. Thank you.

655
00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:17,168
How do you say your name?

656
00:30:17,202 --> 00:30:19,937
Oh. "Ee-na." It was my grandma's name.

657
00:30:19,971 --> 00:30:22,439
I hated it growing up.

658
00:30:22,474 --> 00:30:24,842
Then I realized it could've been worse.

659
00:30:24,876 --> 00:30:27,011
I could've have been named
after my other grandmother.

660
00:30:27,045 --> 00:30:28,179
Her name was Hortense.

661
00:30:28,213 --> 00:30:30,114
[Chuckles] Hortense.

662
00:30:30,148 --> 00:30:31,682
Can you even imagine?

663
00:30:31,716 --> 00:30:33,250
You know what I can't imagine?

664
00:30:33,285 --> 00:30:35,286
Is getting through this
checklist in the next hour.

665
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,621
Paul.

666
00:30:37,656 --> 00:30:40,457
Morphine patches as needed.

667
00:30:40,492 --> 00:30:42,193
Expect some wooziness.

668
00:30:42,227 --> 00:30:43,627
Wooziness I can handle.

669
00:30:43,662 --> 00:30:45,429
She might seem almost drunk.

670
00:30:45,463 --> 00:30:48,432
- I wish.
- [Laughs]

671
00:30:48,466 --> 00:30:49,967
I had a patient once...

672
00:30:50,001 --> 00:30:52,203
a real nice older gentleman...

673
00:30:52,237 --> 00:30:54,538
he used to drink a whole bottle of gin

674
00:30:54,573 --> 00:30:55,606
every morning.

675
00:30:55,640 --> 00:30:57,308
He called it his medicine.

676
00:30:57,342 --> 00:30:59,476
By the time I got there,

677
00:30:59,511 --> 00:31:03,380
he'd be naked and dancing
to his old burl ives records.

678
00:31:03,415 --> 00:31:05,382
- Do you ever stop talking?
- Paul.

679
00:31:05,417 --> 00:31:06,717
I don't care about drunken old men

680
00:31:06,751 --> 00:31:07,885
and grandma Ina.

681
00:31:07,919 --> 00:31:09,386
- Both: "Ee-na."
- Whatever!

682
00:31:09,421 --> 00:31:10,888
My wife is sick.

683
00:31:10,922 --> 00:31:13,290
Can we please just cut to the chase here?

684
00:31:13,325 --> 00:31:15,359
You'll be fine.

685
00:31:15,393 --> 00:31:18,362
And you have my number, S.

686
00:31:18,396 --> 00:31:21,198
And I will see you tonight, Cathy.

687
00:31:21,233 --> 00:31:25,469
Thank you, Ina.

688
00:31:25,503 --> 00:31:27,605
Holy shit. I want to strangle that woman.

689
00:31:27,639 --> 00:31:30,040
She's kind, Paul.

690
00:31:30,075 --> 00:31:33,277
She's chatty and kind. Be nice.

691
00:31:33,311 --> 00:31:35,880
Oh, my God, I've already
lost her number. Fuck.

692
00:31:35,914 --> 00:31:40,217
Paul.

693
00:31:40,252 --> 00:31:42,152
[Sighs] I'm sorry, honey.

694
00:31:42,187 --> 00:31:43,954
I'm just freaked out

695
00:31:43,989 --> 00:31:45,956
that I'm not gonna be able
to take care of you right.

696
00:31:45,991 --> 00:31:47,958
And, you know, chatty fatty...
she knows everything anyway.

697
00:31:47,993 --> 00:31:50,427
And so what's left except for
me to just screw something up?

698
00:31:50,462 --> 00:31:52,162
I need your help.

699
00:31:52,197 --> 00:31:54,565
I need you to get my dad.

700
00:31:54,599 --> 00:31:56,500
I was thinking...

701
00:31:56,534 --> 00:31:59,536
maybe I'm hanging on because
I don't have closure with him.

702
00:31:59,571 --> 00:32:01,272
He doesn't even know I'm sick.

703
00:32:01,306 --> 00:32:03,107
He doesn't return my calls.

704
00:32:03,141 --> 00:32:06,210
I need you to get him and bring him here.

705
00:32:06,244 --> 00:32:07,811
But he hates me.

706
00:32:07,846 --> 00:32:09,546
You hate Ina.

707
00:32:09,581 --> 00:32:12,616
At least it gets you out of the house.

708
00:32:12,651 --> 00:32:15,586
[Knock on door]

709
00:32:25,697 --> 00:32:27,631
Who died?

710
00:32:27,666 --> 00:32:29,233
Hey, bud.

711
00:32:29,267 --> 00:32:31,268
- Been a while.
- Sure has.

712
00:32:31,303 --> 00:32:33,570
Last time I saw you,
you asked me for money.

713
00:32:33,605 --> 00:32:36,240
That was a loan, right?

714
00:32:36,274 --> 00:32:37,808
It was a while ago, and I paid you back,

715
00:32:37,842 --> 00:32:40,411
with interest, remember?

716
00:32:40,445 --> 00:32:42,947
You've gotten hefty.

717
00:32:42,981 --> 00:32:46,650
Can I come in?

718
00:32:46,685 --> 00:32:49,586
So, what's the occasion?
You need some more cash?

719
00:32:49,621 --> 00:32:51,255
Well...

720
00:32:51,289 --> 00:32:54,091
I'm actually pretty successful now.

721
00:32:54,125 --> 00:32:58,162
I'm a, uh, motivational speaker of sorts.

722
00:32:58,196 --> 00:32:59,763
That sounds gay.

723
00:32:59,798 --> 00:33:01,332
I'm gonna get right to the point.

724
00:33:01,366 --> 00:33:02,666
I need you to come back

725
00:33:02,701 --> 00:33:04,601
to Minneapolis with me to see Cathy.

726
00:33:04,636 --> 00:33:06,537
Last time I saw Cathy, she showed up here

727
00:33:06,571 --> 00:33:08,272
to tell me what an asshole I was.

728
00:33:08,306 --> 00:33:11,308
Yeah. Let bygones be bygones, right?

729
00:33:11,343 --> 00:33:13,310
And now she keeps leaving messages for me

730
00:33:13,345 --> 00:33:15,879
like she's got some more
crap she wants to lay on me.

731
00:33:15,914 --> 00:33:17,881
Nah, I don't need to see her.

732
00:33:17,916 --> 00:33:19,616
Bud, it's very important.

733
00:33:19,651 --> 00:33:21,385
Disrespecting her father like that?

734
00:33:21,419 --> 00:33:22,953
No. I'm done with her.

735
00:33:22,988 --> 00:33:25,055
She's pretty much done with all of us, bud.

736
00:33:25,090 --> 00:33:27,691
She's dying.

737
00:33:27,726 --> 00:33:31,528
Cathy is dying, and she needs to see you,

738
00:33:31,563 --> 00:33:33,564
and you need to see her.

739
00:33:34,064 --> 00:33:35,932
She wanted to tell you that herself,

740
00:33:35,966 --> 00:33:38,768
but oops, too late...
the cat's out of the bag.

741
00:33:38,802 --> 00:33:42,271
- Jesus.
- You owe this to her.

742
00:33:42,306 --> 00:33:45,608
You're her father. Your daughter is dying.

743
00:33:45,642 --> 00:33:47,376
And I don't even like you.

744
00:33:47,411 --> 00:33:49,045
But I do know if you don't go see her,

745
00:33:49,079 --> 00:33:51,180
it'll probably haunt you
the rest of your life,

746
00:33:51,215 --> 00:33:53,115
which, for some very unfair reason,

747
00:33:53,150 --> 00:33:57,320
is gonna be a lot longer than hers.

748
00:33:57,354 --> 00:33:59,522
I got a card game tonight.

749
00:33:59,556 --> 00:34:01,224
Are you shitting me?

750
00:34:01,258 --> 00:34:03,125
I'm gonna go outside,

751
00:34:03,160 --> 00:34:06,128
and I'm gonna wait in my car
until you do the right thing

752
00:34:06,163 --> 00:34:09,165
and get your asshole ass
into the seat next to me.

753
00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:21,703
So, the secret is plain old lard.

754
00:34:21,737 --> 00:34:24,606
That's what makes the crust
so crispy and delicious.

755
00:34:24,513 --> 00:34:27,482
I'm sorry my husband was rude to you, ina.

756
00:34:27,516 --> 00:34:30,000
Oh, honey, don't you worry about that.

757
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:33,403
Besides, he's not wrong.
I am a big old chatterbox.

758
00:34:33,437 --> 00:34:36,306
- You're an angel.
- Oh, no.

759
00:34:36,340 --> 00:34:38,341
I feel lucky every day to have a chance

760
00:34:38,375 --> 00:34:40,143
to work with people like you.

761
00:34:40,177 --> 00:34:42,979
It's a blessing to be around the dying.

762
00:34:43,013 --> 00:34:44,914
Come on.

763
00:34:44,949 --> 00:34:48,818
It doesn't get to you...
all the gloom and doom?

764
00:34:48,853 --> 00:34:51,688
My husband and I... we try to squeeze in

765
00:34:51,722 --> 00:34:53,490
a little fun vacation now and then,

766
00:34:53,524 --> 00:34:55,158
but it doesn't happen much.

767
00:34:55,192 --> 00:34:56,826
But it's okay.

768
00:34:56,861 --> 00:34:58,495
I like what I do.

769
00:34:58,529 --> 00:35:00,330
When people are close to death,

770
00:35:00,364 --> 00:35:02,165
they open up like flowers.

771
00:35:02,199 --> 00:35:04,234
They teach me so much,

772
00:35:04,268 --> 00:35:09,005
and that I can provide a little comfort,

773
00:35:09,039 --> 00:35:12,976
well, it sure makes me feel good.

774
00:35:15,045 --> 00:35:16,846
All right, young lady.

775
00:35:16,881 --> 00:35:19,916
I will see you tomorrow.

776
00:35:19,950 --> 00:35:21,918
Ina?

777
00:35:21,952 --> 00:35:23,019
Yes?

778
00:35:23,053 --> 00:35:24,888
Will you make me a pie?

779
00:35:24,922 --> 00:35:27,257
I would be honored.

780
00:35:27,291 --> 00:35:28,858
- [Door opens]
- Special delivery!

781
00:35:28,893 --> 00:35:30,059
Oh, dear.

782
00:35:30,094 --> 00:35:31,628
- Is he... is he all right?
- [Groans]

783
00:35:31,662 --> 00:35:34,230
- I'm fine. How are you?
- He's soused.

784
00:35:34,265 --> 00:35:36,099
Hey, I know you.

785
00:35:36,133 --> 00:35:37,534
Here we go.

786
00:35:37,568 --> 00:35:39,402
There.

787
00:35:39,436 --> 00:35:41,905
- What happened?
- I told him.

788
00:35:41,939 --> 00:35:43,106
I told him you were sick.

789
00:35:43,140 --> 00:35:44,774
He pissed me off, and I told him.

790
00:35:44,809 --> 00:35:46,109
I'm sorry.

791
00:35:46,143 --> 00:35:48,611
He drank most of his liquor cabinet

792
00:35:48,646 --> 00:35:50,446
and two zimas at the mini mart

793
00:35:50,481 --> 00:35:51,915
while I was gassing up.

794
00:35:51,949 --> 00:35:55,618
It's okay.

795
00:35:55,653 --> 00:35:58,488
Hi, daddy!

796
00:35:58,522 --> 00:36:01,291
Hey. You're pretty.

797
00:36:03,000 --> 00:36:05,268
Well, you got him here.

798
00:36:05,302 --> 00:36:06,703
Yeah.

799
00:36:06,737 --> 00:36:08,705
"A new study concludes

800
00:36:08,739 --> 00:36:10,907
that most Americans now believe

801
00:36:10,941 --> 00:36:12,976
that global warming is a real thing... "

802
00:36:13,010 --> 00:36:14,077
Did you hear that?

803
00:36:14,111 --> 00:36:15,399
"And that people are causing it."

804
00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:17,034
Okay, I said you could use my laptop,

805
00:36:17,068 --> 00:36:18,368
not read out loud from it.

806
00:36:18,403 --> 00:36:20,370
I'm in crisis mode, my boy.

807
00:36:20,405 --> 00:36:22,239
I got to school my
kidney on the lefty world

808
00:36:22,273 --> 00:36:24,675
before it ends up embedded
in a right-wing asshole.

809
00:36:24,709 --> 00:36:27,711
[Sighs] I've only got about 12 hours left.

810
00:36:27,745 --> 00:36:29,546
This morning, I read a handbook

811
00:36:29,581 --> 00:36:31,381
on how to make hemp clothing.

812
00:36:31,416 --> 00:36:33,550
Tonight, it's a little
mother Jones and some yoga.

813
00:36:33,585 --> 00:36:35,385
If I were this guy,

814
00:36:35,420 --> 00:36:37,854
I'd be worried that your kidney
was gonna make me go crazy.

815
00:36:37,889 --> 00:36:39,089
Yeah, so what if it did?

816
00:36:39,123 --> 00:36:40,424
I'd be doing that guy a favor.

817
00:36:40,458 --> 00:36:45,062
He's as dull as a compost heap.

818
00:36:45,096 --> 00:36:47,731
You know, if you ever need to talk

819
00:36:47,765 --> 00:36:49,733
about what's going on with your mom...

820
00:36:49,767 --> 00:36:51,868
No, I'm good.

821
00:36:51,903 --> 00:36:54,338
Okay.

822
00:36:54,372 --> 00:36:57,240
Hey, uh, do me a favor.

823
00:36:57,275 --> 00:36:58,575
Pull my ass.

824
00:36:58,610 --> 00:36:59,910
No.

825
00:36:59,944 --> 00:37:02,913
He looks so sweet.

826
00:37:02,947 --> 00:37:06,917
All his worry lines go
away when he's sleeping.

827
00:37:06,951 --> 00:37:12,255
You'd never know he's such a motherfucker.

828
00:37:12,290 --> 00:37:13,890
I never should have asked him

829
00:37:13,925 --> 00:37:15,559
for that loan to buy the house.

830
00:37:15,593 --> 00:37:17,127
You paid him back.

831
00:37:17,161 --> 00:37:18,695
He gets to hold it over my head forever.

832
00:37:18,730 --> 00:37:20,430
You know, "my no-good son-in-law

833
00:37:20,465 --> 00:37:22,733
couldn't even afford to buy
his family a damn house."

834
00:37:22,767 --> 00:37:25,936
God, I feel like punching
him in his passed-out face.

835
00:37:25,970 --> 00:37:27,104
[Snorts]

836
00:37:27,138 --> 00:37:28,772
Plumbers.

837
00:37:28,806 --> 00:37:33,232
[Cathy and Paul laughing]

838
00:37:33,233 --> 00:37:35,835
You know, this is just
so like him, you know?

839
00:37:35,869 --> 00:37:38,204
You're the one that's sick. He gets drunk.

840
00:37:38,238 --> 00:37:39,872
So he gets all the attention.

841
00:37:39,906 --> 00:37:41,707
I mean, couldn't he put you first for once?

842
00:37:41,741 --> 00:37:43,909
- Would it kill him?
- Before it kills me?

843
00:37:43,944 --> 00:37:45,478
I doubt it.

844
00:37:45,512 --> 00:37:47,079
It's like the flowers at our wedding.

845
00:37:47,114 --> 00:37:50,049
All you wanted were some peonies.

846
00:37:50,083 --> 00:37:51,083
That's all you wanted.

847
00:37:51,118 --> 00:37:53,586
He got carnations...

848
00:37:53,620 --> 00:37:55,754
'cause they're cheaper, and he was paying.

849
00:37:55,789 --> 00:37:58,757
You deserved the peonies.

850
00:37:58,792 --> 00:38:01,093
But, hey...

851
00:38:01,128 --> 00:38:04,263
I got you...

852
00:38:04,297 --> 00:38:07,900
the man who married me despite my...

853
00:38:07,934 --> 00:38:11,537
drunk, cheap, narcissistic father.

854
00:38:13,273 --> 00:38:17,243
- Low bar.
- [Chuckles]

855
00:38:19,667 --> 00:38:22,169
I'm so pissed...

856
00:38:22,203 --> 00:38:25,172
that you're going.

857
00:38:25,206 --> 00:38:27,374
[Sniffles]

858
00:38:38,553 --> 00:38:41,822
[Groans] Oh.

859
00:38:41,856 --> 00:38:44,558
I always loved your hands.

860
00:38:44,592 --> 00:38:47,861
Even when I hated your
guts, I loved your hands.

861
00:38:47,896 --> 00:38:50,531
They still make me feel safe.

862
00:38:50,565 --> 00:38:53,567
You should be proud of those hands.

863
00:38:53,601 --> 00:38:56,136
They built me that
playhouse in the backyard.

864
00:38:56,171 --> 00:38:57,905
Remember that? [Laughs]

865
00:38:57,939 --> 00:39:02,009
The one the raccoon moved into
when I went to high school?

866
00:39:02,043 --> 00:39:04,878
Goddamn raccoons... they
ate all your mother's basil.

867
00:39:04,913 --> 00:39:08,440
Thank you for building that house for me.

868
00:39:10,351 --> 00:39:12,519
So, you're sick.

869
00:39:15,123 --> 00:39:18,659
Yeah.

870
00:39:18,693 --> 00:39:19,927
I'm sorry about all the crap

871
00:39:19,961 --> 00:39:22,062
I said to you the last time I saw you.

872
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:25,026
I was just... I was so angry

873
00:39:25,148 --> 00:39:28,717
about how you raised us or didn't raise us.

874
00:39:28,751 --> 00:39:30,219
But the truth is...

875
00:39:30,253 --> 00:39:32,921
you did your best, I think.

876
00:39:32,956 --> 00:39:36,225
I know you loved us.

877
00:39:36,259 --> 00:39:38,193
[Chuckles]

878
00:39:38,228 --> 00:39:41,063
I mean, I wish you could've
said it more, but I know.

879
00:39:41,097 --> 00:39:43,565
And in the end,

880
00:39:43,600 --> 00:39:45,901
you only raise yourself, right?

881
00:39:45,935 --> 00:39:48,937
And I'm pretty happy where I ended up.

882
00:39:48,972 --> 00:39:50,739
I have a wonderful son.

883
00:39:50,773 --> 00:39:53,575
You haven't see him
since he was a little boy.

884
00:39:53,610 --> 00:39:56,578
And God knows I haven't
been the perfect parent,

885
00:39:56,613 --> 00:39:58,213
but I try.

886
00:39:58,248 --> 00:40:00,756
I try and teach him some of
the things you taught me...

887
00:40:00,876 --> 00:40:03,213
And a lot of the things you didn't.

888
00:40:04,089 --> 00:40:07,859
But, yeah, I got to be here and try it out.

889
00:40:09,962 --> 00:40:13,264
So, thank you...

890
00:40:13,298 --> 00:40:15,600
you know...

891
00:40:15,634 --> 00:40:18,402
for giving me life.

892
00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:24,242
I don't know what to say.

893
00:40:26,778 --> 00:40:29,080
I love you, dad.

894
00:40:29,114 --> 00:40:33,718
Why are you being so nice to me?

895
00:40:33,752 --> 00:40:39,123
'Cause I don't have anything left to lose.

896
00:40:39,157 --> 00:40:41,626
You always had the bluest eyes,

897
00:40:41,660 --> 00:40:44,462
just like your mom.

898
00:40:44,496 --> 00:40:47,632
I remember the day we brought
you home from the hospital.

899
00:40:48,755 --> 00:40:51,357
And I hired this fancy photographer,

900
00:40:51,391 --> 00:40:53,158
you know, to take photographs.

901
00:40:52,700 --> 00:40:54,668
So, anyway, he was there.

902
00:40:54,702 --> 00:40:58,004
And, of course, you were sound asleep.

903
00:40:58,039 --> 00:41:01,675
And your mom wouldn't let me wake you up.

904
00:41:01,709 --> 00:41:05,812
So, right after the guy goes, you wake up.

905
00:41:05,846 --> 00:41:07,714
Those big beautiful eyes.

906
00:41:07,748 --> 00:41:09,849
I chased the guy down the street two blocks

907
00:41:09,884 --> 00:41:13,386
and dragged him back...

908
00:41:13,421 --> 00:41:15,956
because he needed to get your eyes.

909
00:41:15,990 --> 00:41:19,659
You were like this little angel.

910
00:41:19,694 --> 00:41:22,696
I wanted to give you everything.

911
00:41:22,730 --> 00:41:25,999
Except peonies for my wedding.

912
00:41:26,033 --> 00:41:28,335
Oh, come on, who pays that
kind of money for flowers?

913
00:41:28,369 --> 00:41:30,804
What? It was just $400 more.

914
00:41:30,838 --> 00:41:32,105
Yeah, $400.

915
00:41:32,139 --> 00:41:34,541
I was getting married.

916
00:41:37,812 --> 00:41:42,782
It shouldn't be you checking out.

917
00:41:42,817 --> 00:41:45,185
It should be me.

918
00:41:51,192 --> 00:41:53,827
[Alarm clock beeping]

919
00:41:55,496 --> 00:41:57,330
- Uncle Sean, wake up.
- Mm.

920
00:41:57,365 --> 00:42:00,100
- Operation day.
- Oh, God.

921
00:42:00,134 --> 00:42:01,534
Whoa.

922
00:42:01,569 --> 00:42:04,604
Oh, I was having the most amazing dream.

923
00:42:04,638 --> 00:42:07,107
I was... I was frolicking in the surf

924
00:42:07,141 --> 00:42:09,476
with a naked Gloria steinem.

925
00:42:09,510 --> 00:42:10,677
Oh.

926
00:42:10,711 --> 00:42:12,479
You know, I think this kidney

927
00:42:12,513 --> 00:42:14,280
might be just run out
of that operating room

928
00:42:14,315 --> 00:42:15,849
and join a commune.

929
00:42:15,883 --> 00:42:18,118
Who's Gloria steinem?

930
00:42:18,152 --> 00:42:19,819
[Yawns] Let's go.

931
00:42:19,854 --> 00:42:21,354
Oh.

932
00:42:21,389 --> 00:42:23,857
Boom, I'm telling you,
right through the pump.

933
00:42:23,891 --> 00:42:25,325
He drops like a stone.

934
00:42:25,359 --> 00:42:26,793
He's gonna dress out at 180 pounds.

935
00:42:26,827 --> 00:42:28,628
I'll fill up your fridge. Good morning.

936
00:42:28,662 --> 00:42:30,330
Holy shit. He actually came.

937
00:42:30,364 --> 00:42:32,832
- We're having breakfast.
- Yeah, I can't eat.

938
00:42:32,867 --> 00:42:34,367
I'm having an operation in four hours,

939
00:42:34,402 --> 00:42:36,870
so, uh, no food, no liquids.

940
00:42:36,904 --> 00:42:38,538
Ah, they're gonna fix your brain?

941
00:42:38,572 --> 00:42:40,640
Dad, he's giving away his kidney.

942
00:42:40,674 --> 00:42:41,708
To a total stranger.

943
00:42:41,742 --> 00:42:43,476
Well, now, that's crazy.

944
00:42:43,511 --> 00:42:46,000
Says the man who only
slept in army-issue pajamas.

945
00:42:46,001 --> 00:42:48,102
They're marine corps-issue skivvies...

946
00:42:48,137 --> 00:42:49,470
That's shorts, for you civilians.

947
00:42:49,505 --> 00:42:51,339
I'm a veteran. [Mouthing]

948
00:42:51,373 --> 00:42:52,807
- Hey.
- Hey.

949
00:42:52,841 --> 00:42:55,343
Yeah, I know Adam. Look
at the... come here.

950
00:42:55,377 --> 00:42:57,679
[Chuckling] Look at the size of this guy.

951
00:42:57,713 --> 00:42:59,347
You're big like me, huh?

952
00:42:59,381 --> 00:43:01,516
Hey, you probably wouldn't remember this...

953
00:43:01,550 --> 00:43:02,717
You caught your first trout with me.

954
00:43:02,751 --> 00:43:04,318
You were this big.

955
00:43:04,353 --> 00:43:06,020
This fish almost yanked
you right out of the dinghy.

956
00:43:06,055 --> 00:43:07,855
- I totally remember that. Yeah.
- Do you, really?

957
00:43:07,890 --> 00:43:09,357
Listen, you ought to
come fishing this summer.

958
00:43:09,391 --> 00:43:10,558
Come on up. You should.

959
00:43:10,592 --> 00:43:12,026
- I'd love to.
- Great. Great.

960
00:43:12,061 --> 00:43:13,861
Bring your colored friend with you.

961
00:43:13,896 --> 00:43:15,663
All: Whoa!
- Oh, lovely.

962
00:43:15,698 --> 00:43:17,465
It's okay. It's okay.

963
00:43:17,499 --> 00:43:21,335
- I'd love to, Mr. Tolke.
- There you go.

964
00:43:21,370 --> 00:43:22,837
Adam, set the table.

965
00:43:22,871 --> 00:43:25,640
We're having my favorite... grits and eggs.

966
00:43:25,674 --> 00:43:28,409
I can't. I have to go.

967
00:43:28,444 --> 00:43:30,244
Where?

968
00:43:30,279 --> 00:43:32,313
I'm going to play basketball
with some buddies of mine.

969
00:43:32,347 --> 00:43:33,514
Dude.

970
00:43:33,549 --> 00:43:36,184
Adam, the whole family is here.

971
00:43:36,218 --> 00:43:38,736
Andrea leaves tomorrow for New York.

972
00:43:38,739 --> 00:43:40,388
We're all together. Stay.

973
00:43:40,422 --> 00:43:41,723
I can't. They're, uh, waiting for me.

974
00:43:41,757 --> 00:43:43,858
- Adam.
- Mom, I'm sorry, okay?

975
00:43:43,892 --> 00:43:48,196
I got to go.

976
00:43:48,230 --> 00:43:50,064
Sorry.

977
00:43:50,099 --> 00:43:53,201
He just keeps rushing off.

978
00:43:53,235 --> 00:43:54,902
I don't know where he's...

979
00:43:54,937 --> 00:43:56,871
Time to eat.

980
00:43:56,905 --> 00:44:00,775
[Sighs] Or not.

981
00:44:03,879 --> 00:44:05,413
You know what I've been thinking about?

982
00:44:05,447 --> 00:44:07,548
That time dad forgot us at the racetrack?

983
00:44:07,583 --> 00:44:10,251
I remembered. I came back, didn't I?

984
00:44:10,285 --> 00:44:12,253
Last words.

985
00:44:12,287 --> 00:44:14,589
That's sick.

986
00:44:14,623 --> 00:44:15,890
Well, it's important.

987
00:44:15,924 --> 00:44:18,926
They can sum up a whole life perfectly.

988
00:44:18,961 --> 00:44:21,395
And the good ones get recorded for history.

989
00:44:21,430 --> 00:44:23,564
You know what Elizabeth I said?

990
00:44:23,599 --> 00:44:28,936
"All my possessions for a moment of time."

991
00:44:28,971 --> 00:44:30,972
How lovely is that?

992
00:44:31,006 --> 00:44:35,109
And George Harrison
said, "love one another."

993
00:44:35,144 --> 00:44:37,211
Oh, someone's been doing some research.

994
00:44:37,246 --> 00:44:42,316
And Steve Jobs said, "oh, wow...

995
00:44:42,351 --> 00:44:44,652
Oh, wow,"

996
00:44:44,686 --> 00:44:46,888
like he'd seen something magical.

997
00:44:46,922 --> 00:44:49,323
His checking account.

998
00:44:49,358 --> 00:44:50,458
Good one.

999
00:44:50,492 --> 00:44:52,393
Thank you, bud.

1000
00:44:52,427 --> 00:44:54,962
I am in need of last words.

1001
00:44:54,997 --> 00:44:57,431
I am soliciting opinions.

1002
00:44:57,466 --> 00:44:59,200
Well, you do know you have to die

1003
00:44:59,234 --> 00:45:00,535
right after you say them,

1004
00:45:00,569 --> 00:45:02,270
or they're otherwise not technically

1005
00:45:02,304 --> 00:45:03,571
your last words.

1006
00:45:03,605 --> 00:45:05,139
Or I just... I repeat them a lot,

1007
00:45:05,174 --> 00:45:06,541
and I hope for the best.

1008
00:45:06,575 --> 00:45:08,309
How about, "don't grieve for me.

1009
00:45:08,343 --> 00:45:09,944
"My art remains, like a dart

1010
00:45:09,978 --> 00:45:14,649
from the speaker to your heart"?

1011
00:45:14,683 --> 00:45:17,885
It's Jay-Z.

1012
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:19,620
Fine. I'll keep it for myself.

1013
00:45:19,655 --> 00:45:22,557
Mine would be, "hey, I got a big one."

1014
00:45:23,095 --> 00:45:24,629
I'm talking about fishing.

1015
00:45:24,663 --> 00:45:27,131
I got a big one on the
line just before I die.

1016
00:45:27,166 --> 00:45:29,067
That would make me happy, anyway.

1017
00:45:29,101 --> 00:45:31,502
If I died right now,
my last words would be,

1018
00:45:31,537 --> 00:45:33,471
"I'm starving."

1019
00:45:33,505 --> 00:45:37,141
It means so much to have
my whole family here.

1020
00:45:37,176 --> 00:45:38,943
Lucky me.

1021
00:45:38,977 --> 00:45:40,812
Everyone except our deadbeat son.

1022
00:45:40,846 --> 00:45:44,816
Maybe that should be my line...

1023
00:45:44,850 --> 00:45:47,018
"Lucky me."

1024
00:45:50,689 --> 00:45:52,490
Nope. Too soon.

1025
00:45:52,524 --> 00:45:54,959
[Door closes]

1026
00:45:54,993 --> 00:45:57,929
Adam?

1027
00:45:57,963 --> 00:46:00,932
He went upstairs.

1028
00:46:00,966 --> 00:46:03,167
I wanted us to speak privately first.

1029
00:46:03,202 --> 00:46:04,669
Oh, God. Oh, God.

1030
00:46:04,703 --> 00:46:06,204
Did Adam finally flunk out of school?

1031
00:46:06,238 --> 00:46:07,772
I tried everything.

1032
00:46:07,806 --> 00:46:10,274
Cathy, as you know, in three weeks,

1033
00:46:10,309 --> 00:46:12,677
Adam's class becomes seniors.

1034
00:46:12,711 --> 00:46:15,012
He won't be joining them.

1035
00:46:15,047 --> 00:46:18,149
Oh. He didn't fail. I failed.

1036
00:46:18,183 --> 00:46:20,318
Honey, it's not your fault.

1037
00:46:20,352 --> 00:46:22,153
Connie, there's got to be something

1038
00:46:22,187 --> 00:46:23,721
that we could do about this, right?

1039
00:46:23,756 --> 00:46:25,356
Maybe... I don't know... some testing

1040
00:46:25,391 --> 00:46:26,891
or some summer school, a
little bit of tutoring maybe?

1041
00:46:26,925 --> 00:46:29,694
Mr. Jamison, he did all that already.

1042
00:46:29,728 --> 00:46:32,130
In fact, he did much more than that.

1043
00:46:32,164 --> 00:46:34,298
I don't know when he slept,

1044
00:46:34,333 --> 00:46:36,300
but he managed to acquire

1045
00:46:36,335 --> 00:46:39,704
a year's worth of high-school credits

1046
00:46:39,738 --> 00:46:41,839
online in a few months,

1047
00:46:41,874 --> 00:46:45,009
which I reviewed, signed off on,

1048
00:46:45,043 --> 00:46:46,844
which is why...

1049
00:46:46,879 --> 00:46:48,813
<i>[Cell phone playing pomp and circumstance]</i>

1050
00:46:48,640 --> 00:46:50,741
- Oh, shit.
- Oh, my God, buddy.

1051
00:46:50,776 --> 00:46:52,910
[Laughter] Ladies and gentlemen,

1052
00:46:52,945 --> 00:46:55,279
honored guests, proud parents,

1053
00:46:55,314 --> 00:46:58,349
it is with the greatest
of pleasure and relief

1054
00:46:58,383 --> 00:47:02,019
that I present this
diploma of completion today

1055
00:47:02,054 --> 00:47:03,988
to Adam Jamison.

1056
00:47:04,022 --> 00:47:06,157
Congratulations!

1057
00:47:06,191 --> 00:47:08,292
- Adam!
- Whoo!

1058
00:47:08,327 --> 00:47:11,295
[Tender music]

1059
00:47:16,368 --> 00:47:21,172
Mom, I know how much you
wanted to see me graduate.

1060
00:47:21,206 --> 00:47:23,174
I'm gonna let you folks celebrate in peace.

1061
00:47:23,208 --> 00:47:25,543
I have a truant I need to check on.

1062
00:47:25,577 --> 00:47:29,347
If only every home visit were this fun.

1063
00:47:29,381 --> 00:47:31,282
Oh, dude, this is awesome!

1064
00:47:31,316 --> 00:47:33,384
- Thank you.
- I'm so proud of you.

1065
00:47:33,418 --> 00:47:34,619
Thanks, dad.

1066
00:47:34,653 --> 00:47:36,187
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

1067
00:47:36,221 --> 00:47:38,623
What he said, dude, but with real feeling.

1068
00:47:38,657 --> 00:47:40,191
[Laughs]

1069
00:47:40,225 --> 00:47:42,526
Look, I'm sorry I missed breakfast, mom.

1070
00:47:42,561 --> 00:47:44,996
I had to get my cap and gown.

1071
00:47:45,030 --> 00:47:46,998
Oh...

1072
00:47:47,032 --> 00:47:50,501
Oh, sweetie.

1073
00:47:50,535 --> 00:47:51,669
That's okay.

1074
00:47:51,703 --> 00:47:54,338
Mom, don't cry.

1075
00:47:54,373 --> 00:47:57,975
[Laughs] I got to see you graduate.

1076
00:48:02,314 --> 00:48:05,483
Lucky me.

1077
00:48:05,517 --> 00:48:08,052
Oh, lucky me.

1078
00:48:08,086 --> 00:48:11,322
[Laughs]

1079
00:48:11,356 --> 00:48:13,824
And still too soon.

1080
00:48:17,162 --> 00:48:19,130
I'm very happy I was alive

1081
00:48:19,164 --> 00:48:20,665
for this breakfast.

1082
00:48:20,699 --> 00:48:22,867
- Me too.
- Okay.

1083
00:48:22,901 --> 00:48:25,803
I am taking one Tolke to the hospital

1084
00:48:25,837 --> 00:48:27,553
and the other to the bus station.

1085
00:48:27,673 --> 00:48:30,474
Oh, dad.

1086
00:48:30,509 --> 00:48:32,829
Thank you for coming. Thank you.

1087
00:48:32,830 --> 00:48:35,332
I'm gonna drive down next
weekend to see you, okay?

1088
00:48:35,366 --> 00:48:36,966
I'll bring some of that medicine with me.

1089
00:48:37,001 --> 00:48:40,970
- I got plenty.
- [Chuckling] Oh.

1090
00:48:41,005 --> 00:48:42,706
I would love that.

1091
00:48:42,740 --> 00:48:44,541
Please do it sober.

1092
00:48:44,575 --> 00:48:46,176
[Laughs] Okay.

1093
00:48:46,210 --> 00:48:48,011
Promise.

1094
00:48:48,045 --> 00:48:49,679
Take care of yourself, okay?

1095
00:48:49,714 --> 00:48:52,048
Mm-hmm.

1096
00:48:52,083 --> 00:48:55,518
Next week.

1097
00:48:55,553 --> 00:48:56,299
[Smooches]

1098
00:48:56,300 --> 00:48:59,858
Adam will be with you the
whole time in the hospital.

1099
00:48:59,892 --> 00:49:01,026
You'll do great.

1100
00:49:01,060 --> 00:49:02,727
Unless I die on the table.

1101
00:49:02,762 --> 00:49:05,063
Say something fast so those
aren't your last words.

1102
00:49:05,097 --> 00:49:07,933
Oh... Gloria Steinem's tits.

1103
00:49:07,967 --> 00:49:09,234
You freak.

1104
00:49:09,268 --> 00:49:11,102
Takes one to know one.

1105
00:49:11,137 --> 00:49:14,439
- I love you, Sean.
- Back at you.

1106
00:49:20,600 --> 00:49:22,635
Andrea, I don't want you doing the dishes.

1107
00:49:22,669 --> 00:49:25,571
Ina will be here. And she can help.

1108
00:49:25,605 --> 00:49:28,607
Besides, you have to go pack.

1109
00:49:28,642 --> 00:49:32,511
Actually, I decided against New York.

1110
00:49:32,545 --> 00:49:33,812
What? What do you mean?

1111
00:49:33,847 --> 00:49:35,514
Well, I just figured you guys

1112
00:49:35,548 --> 00:49:37,516
could use my help around
here for the summer.

1113
00:49:37,550 --> 00:49:40,286
New York will always be there.

1114
00:49:40,320 --> 00:49:41,787
When I told Isaac,

1115
00:49:41,821 --> 00:49:44,189
he threw a box of buttons across the floor.

1116
00:49:44,224 --> 00:49:45,924
He'll get over it.

1117
00:49:45,959 --> 00:49:47,660
Andrea...

1118
00:49:47,694 --> 00:49:50,162
You are not giving up that internship.

1119
00:49:50,196 --> 00:49:52,865
You go. You go right now.

1120
00:49:52,899 --> 00:49:56,168
You tell Mr. Mizrahi you changed your mind.

1121
00:49:56,202 --> 00:49:59,138
I want to be here with you.

1122
00:49:59,172 --> 00:50:02,775
Andrea...

1123
00:50:02,809 --> 00:50:03,842
You...

1124
00:50:03,877 --> 00:50:05,778
you told me...

1125
00:50:05,812 --> 00:50:08,013
I had to fight for my life.

1126
00:50:08,048 --> 00:50:10,683
And that's what you have to do.

1127
00:50:10,717 --> 00:50:13,619
I will not let you give up

1128
00:50:13,653 --> 00:50:16,188
this opportunity for me.

1129
00:50:16,222 --> 00:50:18,857
Mm-mm. You are going places.

1130
00:50:18,892 --> 00:50:20,192
So am I.

1131
00:50:20,226 --> 00:50:22,361
But they're in different directions.

1132
00:50:22,395 --> 00:50:25,364
I will not let you go where I'm going.

1133
00:50:25,398 --> 00:50:29,535
[Crying] But what if you...

1134
00:50:29,569 --> 00:50:32,738
You mean what if I die when you're there?

1135
00:50:35,608 --> 00:50:37,376
Most likely I will.

1136
00:50:37,410 --> 00:50:41,980
Then let me die imagining you

1137
00:50:42,015 --> 00:50:47,986
wrapped in the most
beautiful sparkly fabric

1138
00:50:48,021 --> 00:50:51,824
walking down Broadway
with your friends smiling.

1139
00:50:51,858 --> 00:50:55,661
That is how I want to think of you.

1140
00:50:55,695 --> 00:50:57,730
- So...
- [Crying]

1141
00:50:57,764 --> 00:51:01,734
You go. You find him.

1142
00:51:01,768 --> 00:51:07,406
You beg for that internship back.

1143
00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:09,513
[Sobbing]

1144
00:51:09,514 --> 00:51:12,850
Okay.

1145
00:51:12,884 --> 00:51:15,352
Well, you know what I
have to say now, don't you?

1146
00:51:15,387 --> 00:51:17,488
Please don't say it.

1147
00:51:17,522 --> 00:51:19,523
We'll say it together.

1148
00:51:19,558 --> 00:51:21,525
Okay.

1149
00:51:21,560 --> 00:51:22,860
[Sighs]

1150
00:51:22,894 --> 00:51:24,862
Both: Lucky me.

1151
00:51:42,347 --> 00:51:45,349
[Sighs]

1152
00:51:45,383 --> 00:51:46,884
Sean

1153
00:51:46,918 --> 00:51:48,819
if you pull a goddamn
rolex out of your ass,

1154
00:51:48,854 --> 00:51:52,389
I'm getting off this gurney.

1155
00:52:15,413 --> 00:52:17,848
[Laughs]

1156
00:52:21,700 --> 00:52:24,936
Hi, pretty. How you feeling?

1157
00:52:24,970 --> 00:52:27,639
Good. Tired.

1158
00:52:27,673 --> 00:52:29,274
I made you a pie.

1159
00:52:29,308 --> 00:52:32,062
It's strawberry rhubarb
made from my own rhubarb.

1160
00:52:32,182 --> 00:52:34,479
Stuff grows like weeds out back.

1161
00:52:34,513 --> 00:52:36,848
Ina, it's beautiful.

1162
00:52:40,419 --> 00:52:43,354
I have something I want to give to you.

1163
00:52:49,428 --> 00:52:52,730
[Pills rattle]

1164
00:52:55,303 --> 00:52:56,904
I can't take this.

1165
00:52:56,938 --> 00:52:58,606
I want you to take a
little weekend vacation.

1166
00:52:58,640 --> 00:53:00,541
Get away from all this.

1167
00:53:00,575 --> 00:53:01,876
You deserve it.

1168
00:53:01,910 --> 00:53:05,045
Take your husband to a lake.

1169
00:53:05,080 --> 00:53:08,616
Swim, laugh, okay?

1170
00:53:08,650 --> 00:53:09,750
Please.

1171
00:53:09,785 --> 00:53:12,453
My brother...

1172
00:53:12,487 --> 00:53:16,223
my brother is giving
someone a kidney right now.

1173
00:53:16,258 --> 00:53:19,527
This is the least I can do.

1174
00:53:19,561 --> 00:53:22,363
All right, I'll take it,

1175
00:53:22,397 --> 00:53:24,932
but only if you have some pie.

1176
00:53:24,966 --> 00:53:28,202
Go get two forks.

1177
00:53:28,236 --> 00:53:30,604
Okay.

1178
00:53:30,639 --> 00:53:33,040
Hmm.

1179
00:53:40,816 --> 00:53:43,451
Excuse me. Do you have any peonies?

1180
00:53:43,485 --> 00:53:44,952
Yes, we do.

1181
00:53:44,986 --> 00:53:47,788
Could I just get a whole bunch of them?

1182
00:53:47,823 --> 00:53:49,256
The best ones you have?

1183
00:53:49,291 --> 00:53:51,225
Someone's a lucky lady.

1184
00:53:55,630 --> 00:53:59,700
Hello?

1185
00:53:59,734 --> 00:54:04,638
Oh, Paul, they're beautiful.

1186
00:54:04,673 --> 00:54:08,976
I'm sorry, Paul.

1187
00:54:09,010 --> 00:54:13,647
She passed about 30 minutes ago.

1188
00:54:13,682 --> 00:54:16,083
Probably an aneurysm.

1189
00:54:16,117 --> 00:54:18,452
She wasn't in any pain.

1190
00:54:18,487 --> 00:54:21,455
<i>[Cinematic orchestra's to build a home]</i>

1191
00:54:52,153 --> 00:54:55,289
Well, now you know the whole story...

1192
00:54:57,325 --> 00:54:58,626
The story of my life.

1193
00:55:01,630 --> 00:55:03,297
What do you think?

1194
00:55:03,331 --> 00:55:07,835
Well, I'm not really
supposed to have an opinion.

1195
00:55:07,869 --> 00:55:11,272
But in my opinion...

1196
00:55:11,306 --> 00:55:13,274
that was a good life.

1197
00:55:15,911 --> 00:55:17,645
so, what's next?

1198
00:55:17,679 --> 00:55:19,480
Time's up.

1199
00:55:19,514 --> 00:55:23,083
You get to go.

1200
00:56:48,276 --> 00:57:25,435
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